Ugh, what a day, and it's only 8AM. Traffic was horrible this morning, and I just could NOT wake up. Slept in about 25 minutes and was rushed getting to work, hate that feeling. I'm suppose to be going to take a test after work but I might bail, YET again, I haven't really decided. Depends if I can concentrate enough to study a bit on breaks and on the ride home. We'll see. I really should go though, and I know that.

Last nights stir fry was a bit of a dissapointment, and I have it for lunch today so I'm not really looking forward to it. Hopefully it will taste a bit better second time around, or maybe I'll just go up and grab a salad, who knows. Going to be a pretty slow day at work, Thursdays usually are.

Breakfast this morning included a nice Organic Coffee with a sml amount of Hazelnut Creamer (could really taste the coffee for once) and a Taste of Nature Granola Bar, also enjoying a Vitamin water at the moment. Pictures suck, iphone has no flash and it was still a bit dark in the truck.





Well, best get some items done I suppose. Update later if I have time : )

Internet has been less that co-operative lately! So didn’t have the BEST day yesterday. Went to call about the courses I wanted to take at the Recreation Center for Life Guarding and the ones I needed are full! Clearly I should have been on top of that more, no one to blame but myself. Not going to let it get the best of me though, I’m going to see if I can take the daily ones, I’m kind of doubting that my boss will let me have two days off per week for it though so I might just have to wait until Novemeber to do them, which isn’t really a bad thing, get some more swimming time in to boost my times and I could always go ahead and grab the books ahead of time and get a jump on the reading.

Haven’t been blogging much lately, not sure why but I just can’t seem to get back into my groove. I start everyday super good, even yesterday was alright for the most part but ended up snacking on some chips later in the evening with R, and I had a coffee and cookie after dinner while out with J. The Stir fry we had for dinner was delicious though! I opted for 1/2 the amount of rice as usual and I was able to finish almost all of it, which doesn't usually happen. I find rice (especially white) to be extremely filling. I wonder if they would give it to me sans rice, I HATE white rice... er ok no. I just strongly dislike it.

Kung Pao Stirfry : ) Random Veg (Including Red Peppers, Green Peppers, Bean Sprouts, Carrots, Broccolli, Bok Choy, Green Onion) Shrimp and White Rice (Ugh).

Just need to find my swing again I suppose, hopefully it comes soon because I miss the energy that comes with the healthy eating. Anyways, lots of work to do today, better get to it.

Stayed up a tad to late last night and needed the extra 45 mins this morning, so I decided to drive in. Even with that I just couldn't get myself together to figure out what to bring for lunch so I plan to just go to the salad bar at the cafeteria. Like always stopped at the Gas station for a cup O' Joe and was looking around at the breakfast bars offered. Stumbled upon a delight! And a healthy one at that!

Taste of Nature: Niagara Apple Country. Ingredients include: Almonds, oats*, agave nectar*, raisins*, apples*, brown rice syrup*, whole grain brown rice crisps*, cinnamon*.
*Certified organic. 150 Calories per bar. All the different flavours have different calorie contents, this one was the lowest.

I personally don't know a whole lot about reading ingredients but these seems pretty good to me, atleast I can pernounce them all, and HOLY MOLY, this particular one was DELICIOUS! It was very chewy and had just the right amount of cinnimon. YUM!

Long weekend I'm not sure if I'm going to work Monday or not, we will see. Don't really have much for plans for the weekend though. Definetly going to take the dogs to the puppy park if the weather is nice, as well as a few big walks. Need to do a bit of grocery shopping as well, hopefully can make a few recipe dinners this week, I'd really like to try to make a 'healthy' mac n cheese if that's even possible haha! Most of the recipes I've found so far still aren't to healthy. Cleaning is also in order, just a general house cleaning, probably do that saturday while R naps off nights. Well off to find a healthy mac n cheese recipe! Wish me Luck!

LUNCH! -- > So I went up to the Cafeteria to raid the salad bar ... ANNNND half of it was missing. So I opted for a Sammich. Was pretty tasty, I got Turkey but honestly, it was so pointless, there was so many great veggies on the sandwich that I couldn't even taste it, next time I'll just get veggies and no meat. Opted out of cheese to cause my tummy wasn't in the best mood. Paired with a Diet Coke (Extra Ice!) and my China Study book that I'm still struggling through.

Mutli Grain Bread w/ Mustard, Turkey, Tomatoes, Sprouts, Pickles, Green Peppers, Cucumbers and Lettuce. They usually give you potatoe chips on the side but that would kind of defeat the purpose of opting for a healtier sandwich so I asked for a few extra pickles instead.

Now back to my China Study Comment; it's not that the book is BAD, it's just VERY fact based and informative, well duh, not sure what I was expecting there?! It just seems like they make a lot of assumptions without the actual science behind some statements (there is a lot of most likely, and one can assumes' in the book) But! I'm finding as I'm reading that a question you'll have about information from the first chapter might be answered in Chapter 3 and question from Chapter 2 is answered in chapter 7 and so on, maybe the grouping of info could of been a bit better? I think with anything to do with Healthy Living and healthy choices though, whether it be a book, documentary, blog etc, you kind of have to take everything with a grain of salt, it's absolutely ok to disagree and question what other people are saying as long as your willing to research for yourself, its one thing to disagree but to just disagree without any real facts or knowledge (or personal belief) behind what your saying, you just sound close-minded. If you don't think the facts sound right, or if you're unsure a bit more research isn't going to do anything but make you a bit smarter.. or at the very least, have a few more questions (lol.)

Hopefully this day just flies by. Would be SUPER nice to just be gone today, at home I mean. I was thinking about taking the day off tomorrow but everyone else is working so I might as well just come to work and putter away at things. Excited for lunch today, leftover stir fry is going to be super tasty!

Breakfast included a Kashi Granola Bar and a Cup o' Joe.

When I get a chance today I'm going to call about some courses to be an Aquatic Leader at our pool and hopefully change career paths by Christmas, this office lifestye just isn't for me anymore, need something with #1 More activity and #2 little more substance. Not to mention that it seems like these positions that are being offered right now do actually have a lot of opportunity for growth and extra hours plus great benefits and perks. Pretty much made up my mind, as long as there is room in the courses, if all goes well then I can be in a new full-time position by Novemeber, and possibly a part-time one before hand while I accquire the coruses. Would still work here until I can get the full-time hours there but would be nice to have that little extra for both cause I would be taking a BIT of a pay cut, literally by like $100 bucks a month though.

Planning to go to the Y tonight for a swim, I think you have to be able to swim a minimum # of lengths for the Aquatic positions so need to start building some endurance there. Should be interesting, haven't really done much swimming lately.

Lunch; Left over WokBox Kung Pao Stir Fry (Shrimp, Bok Choy, Red Peppers, Broccoli, Celery & Rice) I REALLY wish they offered brown rice instead of just the plain ole white rice, it has NO nutriontial value AT ALL and really bothers me. Maybe I will send off an email to the Wok Box Managers, I think it's important to have variety in places.

Update Later.

Dinner included; Whole wheat noodles with Garlic Cream Sauce and Diced Chicken + Garden Salad w/ Ranch Dressing.

Well I didn't get to do my swim, mother nature told me no. Once that's over and done with I'm planning to go 4-5 x per week. I tried to call about courses this afternoon but they were super busy and she was suppose to call me back but never got around to it, I'll have to call again tomorrow.

SO! I found out that an Ex-bf has just moved into town. Hadn't talked to him in a long time so we decided to get together for coffee and catch up. Wow.. What a different person. Have to say he's not the person I remember him at all, and not at all for the better. He's turned into one of these know it all people who talk and talk and talk but they really have no idea what they are even talking about. Just wants to boast about his life and try to make himself look good, when in reality he didn't even have much to talk about. Kind of made me appreciate where I'm at with love and relationships as well as work. Just feel super lucky, which is good, so it wasn't an entirely bad experience. Bed Time.

I feel extremely disappointment in myself today. Sitting at work unhappy about being here, despising my job and all I can think about is the fact that I am the reason I am here. If I had put in a bit more effort, or if I ever put in any effort at all then I wouldn’t have to be here in this place that I detest so much, and so often. I was so upset this morning about having to come to work I almost cried, I had to force myself out of the house, that’s how much I hate coming here. I realize a lot of people hate there jobs but should it be THIS bad? Should I hate it THIS much? I doubt it.

Breakfast- Oatmeal w/ Peanut Butter & Banana – Chemical Ridden I’m sure, was pretty tasty though. Really need to start reading labels a bit more, buying less prepackaged things would be good to, but that would involve being much less lazy about food prep, which I don’t see happening anytime in the future. Least I’m honest with myself I suppose.

It’s a NEW month, I should be optimistic for a better day, make some changes, it’s the 1st! Doesn’t seem to be happening though. I could plan for years and I’d still mess up. I wonder why they say, ‘ You don’t plan to fail, you fail to plan’ or however it goes. I plan LOTS and still fail, I can never seem to stick to any plans I create, and everything always just feels so complicated and congested. Get overwhelmed by my own flipping plans! Ugh.

Best get some work done I suppose.

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Had a nice evening with a friend. Went out for Stir Fry, was delicious and as usual when I go out with J I only ate half cause I was laughing my butt off the entire time (lunch tomorrow!). I don't know what is it about the two of us, we never made a good couple at ALL the few times we've tried to make something happen but he's just such an amazing friend, always knows how to make me laugh : )

Got home a bit later than planned, played with pups a bit, showered and did some laundry. Now heading to Sleeps!